enter the world of DOOM

"Dude, loosen up, relax!"

"RELAX, how do you expect me to relax when i have a 8" cock shoved half way up my ass"



- i found this quite humourous!!!!

i'm not understanding my parents.

But then again who does?

They tell me i can go to the concert... then they say NO!


i've been crying all night... YES it ment THAT much to me.... it's fucking shit!


it makes me sad.



though i'm loving the book jess lent me.

All my friends are going to stupid fucking taste of chaos.

None of them wanna come to placebo.

I wanna go with someone cool.

I hate them all for going to t.o.c

gr.

*cries*

looks like i'm attending placebo alone.

So as i sit here in my 'supre' track pants i think of how much i hate 'him'

Yes, the boy i've liked for ages.

i've watched him go out with a rat face girl.

i've told him to straighten his hair.

when he did i told him it looked great.

i always smiled when he looked at me.

i always sighed when he turned away.

he's a good dream. i know i can't have him. GRRRRR... this stupid 1.5 year crush (yeah how pathetic!!)

xx

i think i swallowed paper... uh-oh!

OMG i made fairy cupcakes today.. woot woot.

And there's a rumor going round that i'm a coke whore!!

YAY!

Well well well.

I had a VERY interseting weekend. Mainly time when i was meant to be studying, and doing assignments. I just couldn't be bothered.. so tonight i gotta study for my BCT test.. which won't be to hard. But anyway back to my weekend...


So Mothers day.. i woke up and gave mum her pressie (a card and like 5 2 dollar scatchees)She thanked me then asked me to scratch one.. i did so.. and there was no money one. Well Dad coooked this nice breakfast that really filled me up :O. Then we all got showered and after doing my hair and putting on my shoes i continued to read 'The truth about diamonds' the Nicole Richie book. Well VERY randomly my brother told me and my sister to get in the car and told us we are going to church. I have a massive fear of churches. There is just something about them that makes me.. well just makes me hate them!

We met my mum and dad there and we went in to light candles for my grandmother. Well everyone got down and prayed and i didn't know what to say.. so i just closed my eyes and said in my head. 'Goodbye Grandma, i'm gonna miss you' Then opened my eyes and watched the others prey. We left and had to touch holy water.. which i swear stung my finger. lol

Well we all met up and Grandma and Grandads and i was soo happy to see them. I missed them so much especially my grandad one of the most funniest guys i know. You can be with him for 5 seconds and not know him and no matter what or who you are he'll make you laugh.Well after a verrry long visit. we left and went grocery shopping.

Well we went to Gloria Jeans then went grocery shoppin!!! lol it was fun. I got a Kinder suprise.. it had some Ugly man in it.. who i plan on melting!! lol

Well when i got home i put all of the groceries away then i read the last 2 chapters of 'the truth about diamonds' lol i thought it would take me ages to read it.. but it took me 2 days.. which was like on and off reading. It turned out to be ok.. pretty bad writting skills (like me) but it was alrite. I give it 2.5 stars outta 5.

well thats about it.

LOVE YA BITCHES
xox

DONT YA JUST HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE HAVE THE HICCUPS.. GRR it's the most annoying sound.. my mother has them and it's really PISSING me off *cries* the awful sound of hiccups!!

OMG i am soooooo utterly bored!!

I was meant to meet keith today.. but i didn't want to he seems stalker like!

I was ment to hang with Dan tonight.. but i couldn't coz my parents were comming home.. but their not home!

i have noone to call coz they are all at the living end concert!!

I tried doing my art assignment.. Man, if anyone knows Danica Hewitt.. GIMME HER NUMBER she can help me with my assignment about her work. WHY DID I CHOOSE STUDENT ARTWORK IT'S SO DIFFICULT!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!


i MET a guy called chris... he's really sweet... :D

xox
ant

Hello.

I have decided that i am gonna post my life at the moment on Livejournal although i despise this FUCKING font. Well i shall start off with my mother being back, she has been very depressed because of my grandmothers death, but everyday she starts to get happier. She brought back an MP3 player for me and it's this really cute blue.. YAY.

Now to school..
Well i have changed from Math A to PRE-VOCATIONAL math (which is basically dumb ass math) Well anyway i'm ahead of everyone in the class which is awsome, though i'm surrounded by dickhead-homophobic guys who have nothing else better to do with their life so they sit and bag me out! ha.. they suck! I'm also stuck sitting next to keira GRR she is this pathological liar who thinks she's fully classy BUT SHE'S NOT. She thinks she can design really cool outfits, BUT SHE CAN'T. She also thinks i'm her friend, BUT I'M NOT. I told her this huge lie out of complete boredom that i am really good mates with Lisa and Jess from the Veronicas (they are her fav band) and i told her i hang with them all the time when they are in Bris. Oh, that girl is soooo.. annoying. And what makes math even worse is the fact that Courtney is always away on a wednesday (she's my cuz she sits with us aswell) and with courtney not being there i have to sit with keira alone! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

I had an oral presentation in english yesterday (i'm good at orals *wink*) Well anyway when i had just finished presenting my teacher said to me 'Cool, it was better then i thought it would be.' WTF how horrible.. GRRR he sux.. i got a 'B' anyway which i was proud of for sure.. well i told my mother and she said 'Oh yeah, thats alright why couldn't you get an 'A'' WTF.. why is everyone so unsupportive!!

On sat i got up to some NAUGHTY things with a boy which was awsome because i haven't done anything with a guy for awhile. Well the day after it happened i HAD to call up Jess and tell her.. she loved it. It's fun talking to Jess on the house phone. Especially when she's cleaning the closet she should be comming out of.. HA! i came up with that one on the spot.. oh, i'm such a loser.. lol. Well i told my friend Christine i like some guy and she keeps telling me to go out with him.. GRR wtf! i don't want to.. i just want to have a crush on him lol.

Though i think i have a small lil crush on Rhys again! Fuck that!! lol i got over him like 2 yrs ago!! stupid stupid guy!!!!

I saw coorparoos Version of 'Back to the 80's' Man, they were good.

Well i'm gonna go find something to do.. like roll on the floor or dance.. man it's only 11 wtf!!!!

later xox

'i was alone falling free, trying my best not to forget'

I'm hatting myself at the moment (not in some suicidal way) i'm just sick of me. My grandmother passed away and i didn't cry.. i still haven't.. i'm feeling crappy thats it's taken me this long to realise she isn't comming back. Today i was gonna go to a church (yeah i know me in a church) so i could just think about it (my grandmother went to church every sundaay when she lived in aus) Well i didn't end up going for my fear of churches.. instead i went to the clocktower and checked out there museum.. it was a like a museum of rights and it was FUCKING AWSOME. It has a HUGE wall which is chalk board.. and you write your MSG. I wrote a few things.. 'homosexuality is not a crime' some lyrics and 'ANT ROX' some of the things written on that wall were amazing... so inspiring. I checked out the rest of the museum thing which had badges.. protests... t-shirts i want some of them.. though they are all so old lol they should be re-made coz they have so much meaning.

So i got kinda bored in the city and it was about 4 o'clock so i sat on the grass and thought. There was this really funky guy who kept making me smile for some reason. He was listening to music and kinda dancing to it, i loved how he didn't care what people thought. I wish i was that way, but i pretend to be... things people say do REALLY hurt me.. i don't know why.

Well i went to Olias where we were ment to be having a picnic on her veranda but instead we just had dinner.. which was really nice instead of partying and stuff. I'm really sick of party's, sure they are fun.. but sometimes i just want normal-ness.. Just a serious convo with my friends.. but alot of them don't really want the same. When i was walking to the trainstation i couldn't help but feel scared, i know it may sound VERY stupid but i mean.. cars.. people.. main road... south bank.. it's a lil grrrrrrr-ish if you ask me. I mean i had 2 other people walking with me but we can't fight off people.. we can't all controll whats gonna happen... i dunno maybe i just think WAY TO MUCH.

Well recently i joined www.mogenic.com it's a gay and lesbian site to meet friends... it's really good i've met some really nice people there.. so thats pretty good.

well thats about it.
peace
ant xx

HULLO!

wEnt to the city today with Jess, Christine, Joel + Aaron. It was awsome! First Christine, Joel, Aaron and myself loitered around The Myer Centre waiting for jess' arrival. We went to the cinema and bought our tickets then played around at the arcade, then i wanted more money and i remembered i had brittish money my dad gave me to get exchanged incase i wanted money. So we went down the 'exchange woman' who delightfully smiled typed something then handed me $10.30 and a reciept! Well we go down to the bottom foodcourts which are near target and got some thingy from maccas, it was yummy but when i think about how much meat and grease was in it.. it makes me feel ick! Weelll, then i get a phone call from Jess saying she's at the cinema waiting so we go up and there she is sitting down in 'GREEN' jess and her love for green.. you gotta love it! So when she met my friends i was a little nervous at first (they are very! judgemental at times) but they started talking straight away which was a great sign. So after a few little events which lead us back to the cinema we were ready to go see 'scary movie 4'
It wasn't all that if you asked me, but i'm glad i saw it. I feel the main highlight in that movie for me was the ballooon just floating about the cinema which really pissed everyone off. Though their little skit for brokeback mountain wasn't that funny, it was more 'ha' funny not 'LMAO' kind of funny. Well the baloon finally got captured and everyone watched the end of the movie in peace.
After the Movie we walked Aaron to the trainstation, then walked around for a bit. Eventually we ended up at a really awsome book store having 'gloria jeans' whilst Jess was reading us Classifides from 'Q-scene' after that we all went to that place out side of the clock tower thing. King albert square.. King george square.. i have no idea! That would have to be the highlight of my day..
We juat sat there talking, eating chips and being dickheads (well i was, but when aren't i) the main reason i liked it was coz they have lion statues and i was sitting on one.. they are so comfortable and i named him.. 'ASLAND' i don't actually know the spelling! But he is forever my pet! i am gonna go back beforte the Hollz end and get pics of me on him!
Well after we saw Jess off and caught the train ourselves to Wynnum Central (eep.. Wynnum.. the coolest place on earth LMAO not!) Well we just walked around untill i got a phone call from my bro saying my sister was picking me up coz i was staying at her house. Well that is where i am typing this LJ post from!
OMG i almost forgot! in skinnys today i purchased a 'placebo-meds' poster for 3 bux! dude i am OTT happy bout that..
well i best be off..
later xox
ant

Hello,
yes i realise it has been awhile since i have made a post, i got a little distracted by life at it's worst.

I shall inform you on whats been happening within my boring daily life... Well i went to 'Reverse Garbage' as an excursion with my art class on Monday. OMG i am in love with that store! it's so funky... I got me a large fluro orange zipper thing, that looks like it belongs on a postie's rain suit *squee*!! We also went to the art gallery, hmm.. it wasn't all that! The art didn't really catch my attention, but student art was AMAZING.. i couldn't believe people my age did such beautiful artwork!

Well after that i went to the city with Christine, Courtney + Catherine 'HAHAHA' they all begin with 'C's' Well anyways Catherine ditched us and i got to meet JESSICA.. woot woot woot! aw.. she is so FUCKING awsome.. he he it may sound kinda crazy as it was our first meeting and it was very brief but she seems like my kind of friend. I thought she would have hated me but meh.. he he YAY!!!!!!

Well today.. i worked on my dance (it's due tormmorow EEEEP!!) and i changed my subjects! YAY! no more math A, hello to PRE-Vocational!!!! Though i spoke it over with the guidance cousiller and she advised me to drop Music (because it's not a board subject) and to take up BCT. I don't relaly care because i have some good friends in that class [[LIKE OLIA WOOT WOOT!]]

It just finished raining and i am so sad about that, though i'm listening to the bits od rain falling from trees, and my roof *sigh* it really goes well with the music i'm listening to..

well i better go polish off this dance EEEP..

xx
ant (()) (o_0) (())

Hey,
yesterday i posted a comment asking if anyone has seen any placebo articles etc.. in magazines. Well today when i was out at capalaba i went to the news agency and i found out that "BLUNT" has a article on placebo called "meds not dead" or something like that.. well i wasn't bothered to buy me a copy but i mite some other time. Well thats all i have to say so..
cheerio *waves goodbye*

anthony xx

BANG BANG BANG

Lauren wasn't on the train this morning *sigh* i was ever so alone 'lol'.

Well after school i went to joels with Christine, Olia, + Aaron.. I swear if i knew how it was gonna be i would have went home. It was spent full of joel + Christine all over eachother.. Aaron + olia doing their own thing.. and me watching house of wax getting pissed off by Joel + Aaron. They are in a "Ant's such a fag" stage.. i hate it, they get all lke that and never understand why i get mad at them. I honestly cannot wait for the day i just never forgive them.

I'm in a down mood. Sitting here thinking, listening to placebo....hello hot guy in no shirt going down my streeeeeet : o .. lol! well yeah, i keep feeling so effed up and i just pretend it's not there by showing a smile. I'm sick of doing this!!! I'M SICK!! of liking people aswell.. especially when i have a crush on someone and everyone finds out.. that annoys me. I feel so invaded, like i have no private life and that everyone must knwo everything about me.

OH AND IF I GET CALLED THE "GAY OF THE GROUP" ONE MORE FUCKING TIME I SWEAR!!!

-ant-

Today i went to the movies with Joel, Shayne + Christine. We went to some really nice place to see brokeback mountain. I must say if there is one thing that irratates me about that movie, it's the accents. Heath Ledger just seems to have a really shit southern accent, Jakes is alright though...

Well i also got 2 Badges. One for me that says "I'm not a whore, i'm just popular." and one for olia that says "Goldigger- like a hooker just smarter"

OOH.. some dude was checking me out and smiling.. i'm not soundin cocky but it was VERRYY obvious!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well anyhoos.. thats about it.

Oh i'm feeling a lil down atm (though i shouldn't) i don't know why..

I feel really pointless...

whats the point of a livejournal when only 1 person replies to your posts to let you know they care.. to laugh.. to make you happy..

*sigh*

First day of grade 11.

Wow, today was incredibly BORING. You'd think the first day back would be fun, but no it was shit. It started off with some stupid asembly GAH!! then the grade 11's had to go to the drama room and we got talked to about new rules. We have to wear the formal uniform everyday, that really really sucks!! We aren't aloud to wear undershirts, which is also stupid because it is summer and those shirts so sweat marks so much (stupid material). Well then they told girls they cannot wear any make-up and if they saw make up they would take them to the office to remove it. I know that doesn't involve me, but it still seems a little unfair.

We had lunch, we was spent bitching about the little grade 8'ers thinking their so good in skirts the size of a bloody pencil case. The bell went which lead to period 2 in which we seperated to role classes got handed our time tables and our school diaries, then our role group teacher read through the whole FUCKING thing explaining the rules etc.. i mean we've been at the school for 3 bloody years so far i think we know the rules!!!

Then was period 3. For me this was music, but NO this lesson involved no such thing instead we got taught how to move amps so we didn't hurt our back.. Which really pissed me off. Lunch, we all just laughed sat around talked.

Period 4, this was what period 0 was (as we didn't do period 0 or 1 + normally we go home before period 4) Anyways the subject was drama. I must say i have never had such a fun time in drama!! Christine, Joel, Catherine, Tiffany, Jaimi and me in a room with many people we despise.. god me and christine were on the floor of laughter and the new drama teacher didn't really care. Though 1 negative thing annoyed me..
We were playing this game (it's really complicated to describe) well anyway we basically had to point to people and say their name and swap places with them and it continues on. Well anyways John (a huge arsehole who gave me shit for abit but now realises i dont give a fuck) had his turn and he pointed to joel and said. "Fagboy.. oh i mean Joel" his fucking friends all laughed and i felt so sorry for joel. I honestly want John to get seriously injured to put him through the pain he makes everyone else feel!! GAH!!!!!!!!!!

Well, Lauren before school on the train gave me my x-mas present. It was the first Placebo album (i'm listening to it right now) i nearly died, as now i have all the placebo cd's and the 2 DVD'S well all that i know of. I'm off.. gonna finish listening to the cd about 2000000000000 times and maybe mess about on Paint shop pro..

Later xox
-ant-

(p's. Majorly disapointed, as there was no new hot guys at the school.. *sigh* lol)

This is really pathetic:
Ok i listened to the bratz rock angels "so good".. and it's so fucking catchy!!
well, the lyrics are so shit.. and i changed some of the "dancing on the air" to "living on the edge" coz thats so much cooler lol... tell me what you think of these lyrics!!


So Good - Bratz rock angelz


We know how to dare
We know how to dream
Tonight is the night
What we wanna be will be
We're gonna make it through

Let's conquer the fears
Take every chance
Hold back the tears
What we wanna be we'll be
We're gonna make it through

Out of our heads
Into our hearts
Close to the edge
Ready to start

And it's so good
living on the edge
It feels so good
Nothing can compare
Cuz the beat in our hearts
Is the beat of the charts
Like a spotlight we're cutting through
It feels so good
Shining here in front of you

Give everything
And don't be afraid
Be true to yourself
If you wanna live forever
You're gonna make it through
You're gonna make it through

Out of our heads
Into our hearts
Close to the edge
Ready to start

And it's so good
dancing on the air
It feels so good
Nothing can compare
Cuz the beat in our hearts
Is the beat of the charts
Like a spotlight we're cutting through
It feels so good

living on the edge
It feels so good
Nothing can compare
Cuz the beat in our hearts
Is the beat of the charts
Like a spotlight we're cutting through
It feels so good
Shining here in front of you

Dancing on the air
It feels so good
Nothing can compare
Cuz the beat of our hearts
Is the beat of the charts
Like a spotlight we're cutting through
It feels so good (x2)

(It feels so good
Shining here in front of you
Shining here in front of you)